New Beginings

Wow its been a few years since i posted last. Its insane how fast time flies by when your ass deep in 2 kids and a husband with an insane and unpredictable work schedule. Every year people (myself included) set new years resolutions with hopes of them being life changing things. For as long as i can remember my resolutions fall flat as a pancake. i get going but mid year i LET life take it away from me. I blame it on the lack of time or the kids or Chris's stupid schedule but i know its all excuses for me giving up. Last year for the first time ever i started living a life for me. I decided to get my body and mind healthy and it worked i stuck with it. I was stronger, both physically and mentally. I slept better i meditated and i ENJOYED every single second of my life. The manic crazy house filled with a 6yr old and 3 year old wasn't stressful it was amazing. i laughed more during that time then i did in the year before. Sound amazing right?? yea it left just as quick as it came. Chris came home from deployment and while i still kept up working out my eating, sleeping, mediation and MY time went to shit. then the months go on and on and here i am. My new years resolution isn't to lose weight, or be healthier or give up caffeine ect. my resolution is to CHANGE my life in the next 12 months. to change it for the rest of my life. I don't know what that means for me but i know there is a life i should be living more than what i am now. I have decided to use this blog as a weekly or daily depending on my mood to document this year. The things i knock off my bucket list to the life changing decisions i make for my family. EVERYTHING. i will be raw and personal but i'm finally ready to live the life i was given the way i was supposed to live it. Anyone who is around for the ride i appreciate it but understand you may also be in this hahahahaha no i'm kidding ill change the names so only you know i'm talking about you hahaha. I'm so ready y'all LETS GET IT!!!